Hari Raya Puasa (Eid Mubarak)

It is time of the (Hegira) year again. You know when Ramadan comes, our mind straight-away think about the celebration at the end of the month. I cannot recall when I first started fasting. In the old days observations on fasting were very strict - some of which I regard as arising out of plain ignorance on our part of the religious requirements. We spit a lot during Ramadan back then as we thought nothing should get pass our teeth and hence into our stomach. So saliva is out....Nowadays we are more enlightened.

Whatever it is fasting is tiring for me. My metabolic rate is high. So you can imagine my hunger pangs during the fasting month. Usually I am lighter by at least 3-5kgs every Ramadan. After two months, my weight gets back to the original 58kg until the next Ramadan.

Ramadan is not eventful for me. Neither does the Hari Raya. Being poor during my younger days means that baju raya is extremely optional. Sometimes, I get school uniform for my baju raya, a two-in-one solution devised by my parents. Despite that, year in year out, Hari Raya is always a happy occasion despite the absence of baju raya. When I starts working and having children, my wife and I do buy baju raya for my children. And sometimes my wife buys baju raya for me too. Somehow, old habits die hard. I don't really give a serious thought about baju raya. I wear 'new' cloths during Hari Raya but I don't really wear baju raya. Nowadays, I wear simple ordinary baju Melayu for the Eid prayers, and a normal t-shirt or shirt plus trousers when visiting relatives and friends.

This habit does not mean that Hari Raya is unimportant but what it really indicates is just that I don't really 'over'-celebrate Hari Raya, more than I think is necessary. Or perhaps I am an odd man during this celebratory period!

Selamat Hari Raya * Maaf Zahir Batin!

Maths & Science Anyone?

In my last posting, I talked about how I learned and tried to master English, from scratch. Some readers may misunderstand the piece and conclude that I am a brilliant learner. I was in fact an average learner. Until form 1, I am quite OK with Mathematics and General Science. My trouble with the two subjects started in Form 2, when I found it almost impossible to understand what were being taught by the two subject teachers. My interest in the subjects waned henceforth until I reached Form 5. I hate Arts (Lukisan) and I dropped it from my MCE (Malaysian Certificate of Education) exams. Considering that I was weak in Mathematics and General Science, my prospect of passing the MCE looked bleak. That was very alarming, considering my less bright friends in the primary school days passed their SPM (Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia) a year earlier. It would be koman for a supposedly brighter student to fail the MCE....

With the bleak prospect, I resolved that I must pass my MCE. My reputation had to remain intact. It was a scary scenario for me in that year...i.e. 1977. Slowly I created an Action Plan. Action no. 1: I used the compulsory prep-hours to practice mathematics together with my friends from the Science stream; Action no. 2: I read the Science books from the Science Stream.

Action plan does not guarantee success. I was lucky to have two excellent teachers teaching the two subjects viz. Mrs. Phua and Mr. Fong Fook Ming. Mrs. Phua spared the last 5 minutes of her class at my desk. She checked my exercises, guided me through them and praisde me for managing to finish about 40% of the homework that she gave me in the previous classes. Mrs. Phua would be at the door before Ustaz Mahmud ended his Islamic Studies class. That left me with no room to skip her class.

Mr. Fong Fook Ming was too patient with slow learners like me. He always checked on me...in his class. He would ask if I could follow his teaching, to which my answer was always an emphatic yes. He drew on the blackboard, examples - not on experiments but - of every science concept that he taught. I still could remember his drawing of a moving express bus with me seating on the bus toilet seat when he wanted to explain on relative speeds.

To cut the long story short, I managed to score C3 for both subjects in my MCE, a great feat for me enabling to come back from the brink of failure. In case that does not mean anything to you, I got a C5 for my Pengetahuan Agama Islam subject!

By the end of the year 1977, I saved my reputation among my kampung friends by passing my MCE with grade 1! You can imagine my sighs of relief then!

English?

Bahasa Inggeris or English is not my first language or mother tongue. My first language is Malay and my spoken tongue is the Terengganu dialect. Maybe it is in my blood or perhaps to make up for my lack of numerative skills, I have some flair for language.

I love reading! When in school I like to read anything that I can lay my eyes on. Books, signages etc. At a young age I already have some flair for writing. Malay (both the Rumi and Jawi versions) and English were taught in schools since standard one. And my parents did not object to my learning a language; or another language for that matter.

In standard one, my English teacher, Cikgu Adnan, made me accompanying him to other classes. He taught English. In standard two, a teacher, Cikgu Yusof Ishak, recommended me for a transfer to an English primary school in town. I didn't know why, my father flatly declined Cikgu Yusof's suggestion.

In standard five, I recall a visit by a team of inspectors. They took over my class during the English lesson. They asked questions and asked us to spell words that they said. I could spell correctly all the words a gentleman mentioned until he said, "How do you spell the word "beautiful"?" I knew the correct spelling but I felt overwhelmed by the class' deafening silence. And I was overawed by the smart gentlemen in suits.....Finally I didn't answer it. And he spelt the word for us. I had the correct spelling by my fear overcame me.

After standard six, I was sent to the premier school in my hometown, where English is used pervasively. My friends from the Malay schools became the butt of jokes for our limited vocabulary, funny pronunciations and ungrammatical English.

Not infrequently I asked my father to allow me to drop out of school. He refused. My fear of him got the better of me. I started reading voraciously any books or magazines in English. Not to mention newspapers. Every afternoon, I spent 90 minutes - yes 90 minutes - reading NST (New Straits Times). And I read Newsweek that I subscribed regularly.

In my MCE (Malaysian Certificate of Education) examinations, I answered the Communicational English paper confidently. The question on composition was based on a cartoon by Lat. A sequence of sketches showing a man looking for the right durian he wanted to buy at a pasar malam. the last frame showed him at the hospital with a visitor standing near his bed. Most of my friends just wrote their composition according to the sequence of the cartoon frames. i took a slightly different approach. I wrote of the man telling his visitor how he got into the hospital (using flashback technique).

When the results came out, I was the only one from my school scoring a distintion in Communicational English. To cut the long story short, it pays if we work hard. Now I feel more comfortable writing in english than in Malay although my Malay also good.

English anyone?

Reading Competition in IBY 1972

In my last post, I related how I took away a book from the School Teachers' room to read. That was in 1971 when I was in Standard Six.

After primary school, I went to the premier English school in my hometown. Since I came from the Malay stream, I had to undergo a one-year transition called Remove Class. And English was taught for 19 periods (out of 40) in a week. Everyday except on Wednesdays, we had two periods of English before recess and another two after. Our English teacher was a bubbly and children-loving Ms Carolyn Yoong (later known as Mrs. Tan).

We were in the afternoon session. One day, Ms Yoong brought us to the school library. We were told that since 1972 was the International Book Year, we were asked to enter a reading competition. Students who read the most number of books would be declared a winner and attractive prizes awaited him/her for that.

Zol and I had an idea. We knew very little English but we thought we could also be a winner. Upon getting into the Library we went straight to the English section at the back. Each of us took out a book from the shelf and start copying the "summary" (better known as the blurbs) from the back cover onto our exercise book dedicated for the competition.

We were too deeply engrossed copying the blurbs from shelf to shelf to notice our surrounding. Then Zol said to me: why the Library was so quiet? Of course silence is fully observed at the library but it can't be too quiet. Not even the sound of books or newspapers being shuffled were heard. We hurriedly walked to the front and to our horror, there was no one now in the Library. The doors were all locked. So were the windows. We went to the side windows and saw two girls walking up the stairs outside. We called out to her....but they sped up the stairs giggling.

We resigned to the inevitable fate of having to spend the night at the Library. And our school library was just a big converted classrooms meaning there was no toilet, no water-dispenser and other than the books there was virtually nothing that would have kept us occupied for the expectedly long night ahead .

About half-an-hour later, there came our friends with Ms Yoong not far behind to the Library. Apparently Zol and I must had been classified as "good' students, and since everybody noticed that we were not back to the class after the Library time and no one noticed us going anywhere other than to the Library, Ms Yoong led a 'search-and-rescue' operation with the obvious location being the school library.

It took another 20 minutes to locate the key to the School Library as the Library Prefect on duty on that day had been to the bus stop outside the school to go home when Pak Bakar, the general assistant, came running to her asking for the key.

Neither Zol nor I won any prize in the competition! I like books and I like reading!

I "Stole" - or was it borrow? - a Book!

First my apologies for not feeding you with new posts. I do not wish to offer any excuses.

Unlike other males, I was and am not the rough and tough type. My late father was a "serious" (stern-looking?) person. He enforces strict discipline upon me. Since I was a pre-schooler, my father ordered me to "menghafal" (that was his term for "study" and study, in early 1960s, means going through my own exercise books or the few textbooks that I had) every evening after dinner. This forced "reading" of my own "masterpieces" in my exercise books and the textbooks made me love - or was it addicted to - reading. And since then I simply love reading.

Newspapers rarely reach my village during my primary school days. But the cupboards in our bilik guru were well-stocked with books, thick and thin. Every time I had a chance to enter the bilik guru, I couldn't help but lay my eyes onto the well-stocked glass cupboards. Deep in my heart, I felt curious and I wish I could borrow those books and read them. But my fear of the teachers prevented me from trying my luck in asking for permission to borrow the books.

When I was in standard six, my class teacher always put a particular book on his table. One fine day, I went to his table and asked my teacher if I can borrow the book, "Ranjau Sepanjang Jalan", a novel by Shahnon Ahmad. To my dismay, he flatly said no! I didn't understand why the teacher was so "kedekut' with the book.

I still could not contain my curiosity towards the books in the glass cupboards in the bilik guru. Finally, I resolved that I wanted to "borrow" the books - one each time - from the cupboard and read them.

My biggest problem was how to "take" the book from its secure location. One fine day, I stayed behind after school. My school has no afternoon session. On that Thursday - Fridays and Saturdays were our weekend - I stayed behind after the last bell. The gardener went from room to room to lock the doors and the windows. While he was on the other end of the building, I quickly went into the yet-to-be-locked bilik guru and quickly grabbed a thick book and made a delicate casual walk towards the school-gate. As soon as I passed the gate, I opened the thick book titled "Bersama Sang Suria" and read it while walking home in the hot afternoon sun. I was careful enough not to allow my father to know that I brought home a book without any permission from the school.

I finished reading the thick book - a Malay translation of an anthology of western fables - within three days.

I thought getting the book from the cupboard was the biggest hurdle. Actually getting the thick book back was harder than I had imagined. Bringing the book in my small schoolbag to the school was already a big risk. I was restless everytime I was in the school compound. I was really afraid if anyone ever discovered the book in my possession. You see, I was a good boy; and if I was to be caught stealing, I couldn't imagine what would my father's reaction be. I would surely be caned for tarnishing his reputation. Anyway, I managed to put the book back onto its original spot in the glass cupboard in the bilik guru on the fifth day after reading it!

My lust for reading doesn't stop there! Until now no one knows that I did "steal" a book to read. In my next posting I will relate another of my experience with books and reading!

Tok Ki Had A Shotgun

It has been a while since my last posting. There is no particularly special reason for that other than sheer procrastination on my part.

My late paternal grandfather lived to a ripe old age of 90 when he died of natural causes. I called him Tok Ki (Terengganuan for grandfather, perhaps a contrite of "datuk lelaki"). During his lifetime, Tok Ki had many plot of lands. Other than the many rubber smallholdings, he also had many orchards and farm lands. A plot of his lands is located next to the Terengganu river. It was partly an orchard and partly a tilled area where corn and banana were planted from time to time.

On the river bank, there were trees including clumps of bamboo. A pangkalan was also there but it was not meant for ordinary crowd as it was steep and the water was deep, unlike popular pangkalans which were shallow and gradual. The pangkalan was used mainly by buyers of our bananas from the town who visited Tok Ki's orchards once a month.

Tok Ki had a shotgun - a licensed one. He got a gun license for the purpose of shooting the squirrels that spoil his coconuts. Once in a while, Tok Ki organises toman-hunting. Well it was not actually hunting, rather shooting the toman. Toman is a snakehead (?) prevalent in the river. Tomans are big and strong but difficult to hunt down.

I used to follow Tok Ki to such toman-hunting. The hunt involves a lot of patience. Tok Ki would sit still at the clump of bamboo on the riverbank. He threw kapok-seeds into the water every now and then and sat still. On his sides about a metre away, three or four young men stood ready to jump into the blue water once a toman is shot. We had to maintain complete silence as the slightest of noise would scare away the toman. The kapok-seeds were thrown into the water to entice the toman to surface. Tok Ki would train the shotgun barrel straight towards the water, onto an imaginery spot that he would expect the toman to surface.

Usually, I would sit behind Tok Ki leaning against the bamboo clump. And most of the time, I would be lulled by the deafening silence.

I was jolted from my near 'slumber" by the sound of the gunshot. At the same time, the young men dived into the water and went after the stunned toman. The toman was big. It took the four young men about 15 minutes to grab and hauled it onto the riverbank. The toman would then be brought back to our community well where the ladies took over. The fish would be cut into many portions. Each of the 'participants' would get a piece and others in our big family would also get a piece each.

Sometimes, the fish was cooked community-style. Most of the times we would be given our portion to be cooked on our own.

Nowadays, no one goes for toman-hunting in Tok Ki's fashion anymore. People hunt for toman using hooks and baits nowadays and they do that at Lake Kenyir. Angling is the order of the day!

My Paternal Grandfather - A Rubber 'Towkay'

In my last posting, I talked about my father and his motivational talks. Unlike him, his father - my grandfather that is - was quite well-to-do. He was said to have been born in the year 1901. He died in 1990 at the age of 90. My paternal grandfather owned many rubber smallholdings. He had many people - including my father and an uncle - tapping rubber for him. I have fond memories of him.

Once a month back then, a pot-bellied man would arrive at my grandfather's house where he and his workers gathered. The potbellied man would then weighed in the rubber sheets. Once the weighing process was over, he handed over monies to my grandfather and took away the rubber sheets. Now, my 'important' role started immediately after the pot-bellied man left. My grandfather would call me to his seat and asked me to 'calculate' the sales and the amount due to his workers. I would tear off a few sheets from my exercise book and start writing. He would orally mention the amount of rubbers sold and the unit price and I had to tell him the sales amount. For every worker, I had to also calculate the gross amount and the net amount after deductions of advances that my grandfather made to each of them. Only then the workers would get their respective due.

One interesting thing to note is that, I didn't actually produce those figures. My grandfather had actually known the answer beforehand. My role, which I discovered later, was only to confirm his calculations. When I say his calculations I don't mean that my grandfather was literate. His was purely mental mathematics...! Usually when I told him an answer from my calculations, he would say either.."uhh umm yes!" or "would you re-calculate it?" The latter response happened when my answer didn't tally with his (mental) calculation. In all cases, his were proven correct as he would say yes after my second or third time tries.

In olden days, the rubber weight was measured in terms of kati and pikul (catties and piculs). Sixteen tahils made one catty and 100 catties made one picul.

Time, Dinner and Motivational Talk - My Father's Contribution

Time is money or time is golden etc. Those are some wisdom from wise people a.k.a. the consultants. Well, the biggest influence upon me regarding time is my father. My late father was a person who cannot wait for long in any appointment and he was also a person who did not allow people to wait for him. No! he was not a somebody. He was just an ordinary folk who has little formal education. But he was fierce, as far as I am concerned.

In the 1960's, as I have mentioned earlier, we live in a kampung house with no electricity. The arrangement was simple then. My father was the sole provider for the family and my mother managed the home. Dinner was after maghrib. After dinner, my father insists that I sit up for at least five minutes rather than lying down or in any other position. His usual reason for that was to allow for the "nasi" to "jatuh ke perut" meaning to allow for the food to "settle down". One good thing was that my father kept the time by referring to his old wristwatch - a Seiko or a Titoni (I cannot properly remember exactly). And when the five minutes is up, he will utter, "dah" and only then would I be allowed to do other things.

Whenever my father calls for me, he expects me to be in front of him immediately. And he expects me to wait for him rather he me whenever we went out for work, visiting relatives etc. This informal "training" in being speedy, punctual and protocols stick with me to the present day and this habits caused frictions between me and my colleagues most of the time.

When it comes to dinner, we always had it together. We didn't have plenty of food to eat but it was just enough for everyone. During dinner we were not allowed to talk a lot nor aloud, and not to take "big" portions. We were told to take it in small portions but we could do it in many times rather than grab the biggest slices into our plates. We were not allowed to burp loudly until the last person had finished his/her meal. Most of the times, we were encouraged to finish our dinner at the same time.

Sometimes, father would say during dinner: "makan cepat sikit, ayah nak membaca" . We knew that there was some issues he wanted to 'share' with us or to put it bluntly he wanted to give us a tongue-lashing. And I would be thinking during the meals what wrongs did I commit for the past few days.

Now, the "membaca" part was not nice but was orderly in a sense. My father would mention the incidence that makes him angry and he would gave us his analysis of the incidence and warn us not to do such wrongs. Usually we sat down silently during the "membaca" time. Don't get it wrong, my father did not "baca" (read) any text. "Membaca" was the euphemism for telling-off session. One good thing from my father's "membaca" session is he never put us down, rather he would gave reasons and justifications for his "larangans" (the don'ts). But "membaca" sessions are not our favourite part of our life.

Come to think of it, the "membaca" sessions, our imposed-by-father dinner etiquette and time-protocols that shaped my life are the best things that contribute to my success later in my life. My father never mix scoldings with meal-times. I consider his "membaca" sessions as the present-day motivational talks except that his was more of a sermon as we rarely question his exhortations.

Time, Dinner and Motivational Talks - three things that shape my life! courtesy of my beloved father. He did it without formal training in parenting.